Train Green

Train of sorrow
your path to me is dark
Not your force to maintain
And not a picture will sustain
For you are always moving
And never burning out your sparks
Crazy train, your fury is known
from your white beaches
as wide as it reaches
You ride back into the night
back into the rain
Train green, you do not worry me
You ride dreams together, rip them apart!
Gamblers, bookmakers and money-losers,
You all know it but cowardly, you all are
afraid
in your heart!

Now that I say that I leave you now and I seek your bright eyes lookin’

Now that I say that I leave you now
And I seek your bright eyes lookin’
I hope you might find me on my return somehow
With your sharp ear you may hear me complaining
With your warm voice you can warme me up
Even when my inside is dying

Now that I say that I want you now
Your eyes to me are freezin’
I hope you might find your light in me somehow
And may my days be over, of endless painful teasin’
And stay close to my dreams
Even when imagination is dying

And I hope you find your light
And may it not belong to the people around you
With your fearful lookin’ you might be driving me insane
You’ll see me leaving without a sigh
You will not hear me complain

From Potter To Dylan

Like many others, my father created my world.

I barely hopped in or my universe was about to collapse again.
Beside from the great wall that was separating me from reality,
There was a man standing next to me and he was sayin’;
You shouldn’t be looking for the doors,
You should be praying.

But I refused to pray and I never went to church, I never saw any God no matter how hard I searched. I can still see the boy I once were, questioning the life of the crazy lad living on the other side of the road. He had greasy shoulder-length black hair and a hook-nose. Great was the day I stole his broom stick, after discovering it could fly, I jumped into the air and that I’ve never seen that place again. I landed in a quiet area and I quickly rebuilt my world.
God gave knowledge to men, my father gave it to me. I wasn’t influenced by anyone, what my father said was true, he was that guy above us to me.

And when your words finally struck me,
a thunderhammer smashed my head.
Making me float between love and death.

My mother didn’t like my father as much as I did, and soon the only person who could make me pray, was gone. Of course, he didn’t vanish. I saw him once in a week, depending on if I needed money or not. It took several months before I realized what I had lost. In my search to new sources of wisdom I found myself listening to Cash and Young, but neither of them could satisfie my desire, but when Dylan appeared, I felt like I retrieved my father. I soaked every single word up, Dylan is somebody who really lived.

Of course I also had a caring mother who took me under her wings after the divorce, but a mother can never take the place of your father of course. Since there was nobody to send me in the right direction, I made developing myself my top priority.

At sea..

I saw them at the beach, and I said hey
And I said hey, don’t you know who are they?

Y’know that they, there in the sea
For them, dear man, nothin’ is for free

And I was about to go away, but the man said stay
Stay man, you got some drinks to pay

At the sight of the blinding sun, I ran
And I went sitting next to the old man

I had enough, took the train back home
Back home, where the tourists roam

About some people

Nobody ever told me about the men next to the road. They never said anything to me about their destination. They made me follow them through lakes of burning fire, through fires of biting cold. They made me go through, they made me unable to doubt. They put spices in my eyes, they made me unable to see what it was all about. And they knew I was about to fall, I yelled, but they didn’t care at all.

You shouldn’t ‘ve got me into your song

You shouldn’t ‘ve got me into your song
Since you were sitting there
Talkin’, laughin’, how could I possibly care?
You knew right from the beginnin’
That you’d rather see me singin’
Of course, you were not aware
By not staring back at me
You were sending me to despair

Your very first look that night
Could’ve made me lose direction
Few can say, but that night
You were approachin’ perfection

Only a week before, you tricked me
And got me under your spell
Still, you did not want to hear my plea
Say now, how are you supposed to read
Words, thoughts that you will never need
While you know that it’s wrong
You shouldn’t ‘ve got me into your song

6 october 2007 - BV.

a night of crying

Words can’t express what I feel
I feel ripped apart, cold inside and stabbed through the heart
My eyes are red and full of tears, my mind is already dead
Words appear and fade again, not knowing whatever they mean
But I go on, I read, I write and I think different than ever
You’ll always be on my mind, everything you said. However
You made such an impression to me, one that I need to erase
It seems this gonna take forever, I can’t even remember your face

Oh, there is another day, after a night of crying
And than you realize that you’re not dying
But thinkin’ how to get back on track
It probably won’t work, but it’s worth trying

Memories (or how I’ve been living the blues)

My past is walking next to me
Looking for someone to blame
But what a shame,
For it was only my own big mistake
You touched my heart
And ran away

I couldn’t run
Still looking behind me
Waiting for someone, something
Never to come

Days got filled up with tears
Never been so sad in many years
Memories are keeping me down

BV, 5-7-07

I’m walking on this lonesome road

Walking down an endless road
That’s going down and down
Empty pockets, wore out coat
Looking back with eyebrows frown
Wond’ring what went wrong

It was the phantom of my past
That kept me alive for weeks
But I know now, this fire can’t last
Let me go while you still can
Make me hide behind tears

Squeezed out with nothing left
I walk on, afraid of what’s comin’
Knowing that with love comes theft
Theft of emotions, of creativity
For now, I’m nothing but skin

I was the mysterious masked man
That drew a line around your world
The same that doesn’t give a damn
About what you think that is right
I’m walking on this lonesome road

BV. 10-7-07

Redemption

He didn’t dare to look
His hands shook and he was asking himself
What’d appear and if it’d be like hell
It didn’t take long to realize
Nobody there could possibly tell
His lord could not be there

Behind him the world stopped turnin’
His legs broke and he was asking himself
What if his heart lost its rhythm?
It didn’t take long to realize
Nobody was there with him
His lord would not be there

When he finally turned his head
A sharp pain hit him and he asked his lord
Why do we have to get teased
And suffer painful deaths
When we’re about to be released?

1-11-07 BV
No war can stop love